I hate it when I feel this way. I actually dunno how exactly I'm feeling and what I should be thinking and doing. It's miserable and tiring...
It's amazing how one phone call made to talk rubbish can lead me to feeling this way. Haix... Who can help me???
My best friend juz told me today that she got attached LAST WEEK! Can you believe that? Haix.. But it made me feel better that I'm the first one to know la. Actually I should have suspected it le rite? But I didn't. Haix.. Maybe the lack of sleep and the busy weeks made me have very very slow reaction la... She said things that were suspicious le but I juz din catch it... I had bad experience with this kinda things la so I'm kinda afraid, scared and angry. But, I hope this time will not be like the last. But.. SUPER AWKWARD! Imagine when we go out together, I will feel damn weird lo... Haix.. Dunno if you guys will understand. Very curious to know hu is this person rite? Nope, I'm not telling. Haha.. At least not yet la. LOL.
But, this gave me the motivation to look for bf also le. Haha... Even my sis is attached all the way in US la! *Saded..* Is it known as desperation? I wonder... Maybe coz my "wife" abandoned me for someone else ba... Now, got one lesser person to talk inner stuffs to le.
Secret: Actually recently I got a crush on this guy but I'm not sure of my own feelings so I dun wanna think too much into it. But, suddenly after tonight, I feel like I juz wanna pour everything out. I'm thinking what will happen if I try to confess to a guy for the first time. Haha.. I think the news SHOCKED me so hard that I have the urge to do stupid things. It's like getting drunk on a dozen glasses of tequila shots or something. I need a drinking session man!
How easy it is to lose contact...
Saturday, July 12, 2008
